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At the bottom is always the best soil to sow and grow something new again.
At the bottom is always the best soil to sow and grow something new again.
In that sense, hitting (rock) bottom, while extremely painful, is also the perfect sowing ground.
That being said, before we can begin to grow, we must first realize that we are bogged down. (Step 1)
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My arms have grown weary and my back is all worn.
My insides are crumbling and my outside is torn.
Life is a journey that requires some might
and rest becomes a luxury instead of a right.
So now I am in need of major repair.
God's needle and thread with love, hope, and care.
This was originally written for
Poetry Jam for the "One Word" prompt.
My word is:
Recover
Unfortunately I did not make it in time, so I am sharing it with Poet's United's Poetry Pantry #236
Being the mother of a recovering addict alcoholic has made the last few years of my life rough in more ways than just a worn out arm chair.. I am blessed to be able to say that his ultimate rock bottom was 6 months ago, and the journey since then has been the beginning of rehabilitation for a road full of wreckage that once seemed beyond repair. It is hard to have to admit, but my own dysfunction inhibited his recovery for a very long time. My need to smooth the gravel path prolonged his stay on a road of destruction, and that is a sad truth that I must never forget. The fact of the matter is, recovery is not just for alcoholics and addicts, it is for anyone who has been born upon this earth. If you have lived then you have felt something and been touched by the wares of life. It is impossible to feel and not at some point get hurt in some way, and if you have been hurt, then you are in need of recovery.
Like a worn out chair that has been sat on again and again, we all eventually need some mending. Fortunately there are many avenues of help out there. Many churches and support centers have groups that meet and provide a great help to those who are ready and willing for a change. There is "Celebrate Recovery" a Christ based approach to recovery that was a response to twelve step programs such as Alcoholics Anonymous. "Overcomers Outreach" is another great support group founded on the twelve steps and the scriptures as well. No matter what place you might find yourself in this life, there is help and support out there. You just have to want it bad enough to have the courage to reach out for true help and start mending your life.
Life is a journey that requires some might
and rest becomes a luxury instead of a right.
So now I am in need of major repair.
God's needle and thread with love, hope, and care.
This was originally written for
Poetry Jam for the "One Word" prompt.
My word is:
Recover
Unfortunately I did not make it in time, so I am sharing it with Poet's United's Poetry Pantry #236
Being the mother of a recovering addict alcoholic has made the last few years of my life rough in more ways than just a worn out arm chair.. I am blessed to be able to say that his ultimate rock bottom was 6 months ago, and the journey since then has been the beginning of rehabilitation for a road full of wreckage that once seemed beyond repair. It is hard to have to admit, but my own dysfunction inhibited his recovery for a very long time. My need to smooth the gravel path prolonged his stay on a road of destruction, and that is a sad truth that I must never forget. The fact of the matter is, recovery is not just for alcoholics and addicts, it is for anyone who has been born upon this earth. If you have lived then you have felt something and been touched by the wares of life. It is impossible to feel and not at some point get hurt in some way, and if you have been hurt, then you are in need of recovery.
Like a worn out chair that has been sat on again and again, we all eventually need some mending. Fortunately there are many avenues of help out there. Many churches and support centers have groups that meet and provide a great help to those who are ready and willing for a change. There is "Celebrate Recovery" a Christ based approach to recovery that was a response to twelve step programs such as Alcoholics Anonymous. "Overcomers Outreach" is another great support group founded on the twelve steps and the scriptures as well. No matter what place you might find yourself in this life, there is help and support out there. You just have to want it bad enough to have the courage to reach out for true help and start mending your life.
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"Let your hopes, not your hurts shape your future."
~Robert Schuller
Wow. Simply beautiful lines, place me center front of such deep emotions.
ReplyDeleteYour poem rings true, Carrie. Life definitely is not an easy road, and we all need to find a way to keep our 'road' in good repair.
ReplyDeleteAt some point in life we may be tested with bunch of struggles & pains but that doesn't mean we are not loved, it only proves we are getting stronger so we are trusted of burdens to claim the fact we are stronger now than the last. I am very happy for the healing you & your son has received. Bless you, Carrie!
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This is absolutely beautiful, Carrie. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. My family has been affected by alcoholism as well, and it's so tough to go through...
ReplyDeleteLife is indeed not an easy road but I do believe, love and hope can repair anything on this road.
ReplyDeleteCarrie, thanks for sharing this difficult road. I come from a family of generational addiction, as so many of us do, and I take heart in that your son has hit bottom and begun the slow walk back - the road of recovery you will walk with him will take you both deeper and farther than you can know, and you will one day look back at the extraordinary privilege it was to make this journey. All the best to both of you and keep writing. Write your way through this journey of transformation.
ReplyDeletep.s. and today's chairs are NO WAY as comfortable as those old chairs of our grandparents' day. LOL. I so want one just like the one in the photo, recovered!!!!!
ReplyDeleteCarrie thanks for sharing both this poignant poem and the world that you wake up to each day. Each new day is a gift the end of which is a additional victory
ReplyDeleteoh it its wonderful to fall into his hands for repair... he's a master when it comes to using needle and thread
ReplyDeleteAn honest and intensely reflective piece of writing. "My need to smooth the gravel path" really resonated with me. I have been there, done that and brought home the T-shirt, again and again and again. For me . . . that is a habit (my knee-jerk reaction, really) that I find very difficult to shake. People have to own their mistakes in order to go forward.
ReplyDeletesmiles...you know the source of repair that will carry you through...
ReplyDeleteand its hard to hold on and hold up caring for another as well...
it can feel like you never get any rest....
Totally relate. So much is the same-same. Uncanny. So now, first and foremost, take good care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteGreat recovery, and your connection with son will be grow stronger. Thanks for sharing with us! Remember yourself and rest, much love x
ReplyDeleteThis is a very poignant poem, Carrie. I can understand that you too would feel you would need mending. Being a parent is not a smooth and straight path.
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you both!
ReplyDeleteI'm loving the hope and redemption in your words.
ReplyDeleteso glad to hear that your son is reallly beginning the right road! such a blessing and sometimes a blessing that you could never imagine would happen. Hope this positive road continues on !
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words and most wise Carrie! Recovery is a slow process full of obstacles along the way. Worst it has a tendency to recur again. The fact that one recognizes it and knows what to do half the battle is won!
ReplyDeleteHank
beautiful words of encouragement.
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