"We sail within a vast sphere, ever drifting in uncertainty,
driven from end to end."
We were two different countries
within the same continent you and I.
Your ways were not my own,
although we stood there side by side.
My gravel roads led to your winding highways
that seemed to never end,
and I knew where you were going
just as you understood where I had been.
Yet somewhere between the new frontier
and old roads in need of repair,
an ocean grew amidst this continent
like the shifting plates of hearts and cares.
I have married twice and both times it has been a process much like shifting plates of the earth crust. The ground has shifted beneath my feet, and I have been unable to remain in the place that I once stood. I guess I could look at it as a loss or an utter failure, but I choose not to. I have learned more from these 2 different and both difficult men than they will have ever truly learned from me. I have come to understand that there is no perfect person and we are all products of our past and the places we come from. We do not get to have a road map of the human heart. I only know that I love them both and always will. Yes that sounds crazy, but I have always believed that if you truly love someone, and I am not talking about romantic love, I am speaking of the love that one has for a fellow human being in this life, then that love never ends nor stops. You cannot turn love off like water in a faucet, nor should you even try, but you can learn from relationships good or bad and you can hope to make better decisions moving forward in the future.